God keeps the love grow

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I was 18 years old when I went through a terrible heartache. My first love and my first boyfriend got his ex-girlfriend pregnant. It was a pain which other may call, “tagos to the bones”. I remember having dinner with my family, when I would suddenly cry because of the pain. As part of healing, I prayed the holy rosary as often as I can. I hear mass every Friday and light a candle at the grotto for emotinal healing. I prayed and prayed harder.
When I was studying for an upcoming exams, I decided to open my Bible and see what the Lord is going to tell me. I just opened the Bible randomly and to my surprised, it opened in 1 Corinthians. I believe that God has really spoken to me then. The exact verse where my fingers landed on was; 1 Corinthian 13:4-13. Here’s what is says:

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I hold this verse into my heart. I cried and cried after reading the passage. I knew that God is there with me especially during those painful days. I continued to pray and hear mass and light a canlde for my personal healing. But, I asked God through Mama Mary, that if ever ney and I would be together again, then send me a red rose.

On the same year, I was invited to participate in PREX, or Parish Renewal Experience. My relationship with the Lord is deepened through this seminar. I know that God loves me and all, but I learned to put everything under His charge. It was really an experience. :) On the last day of the seminar, we received letters and flowers from family and friends. I share the table with my godsister, Katrina and I saw our common friend Pete holding two roses. I knew already that one will be given to me. I just don’t which will be given to me. As he approached our table, my heart was already beating so fast that I could hardly breath. Then, he gave me the red rose. It was a happy moment. Though I didn’t realize yet the greater pain that I need to go through.
My friend Pinky, told me once, that when it is right, things and situations are simple, but when it is wrong, then things are complicated. True enough. Ney and I were in each others arms again after five years. But things, were not as simple as they were. We have gone through so much to fight for this relationship. I have fought for him and for love. But maybe, those are not enough, if God is not with you in the fight.
We have different beliefs when it comes to faith. Often times we argue about faith. He criticize my faith as Catholic. He criticize the priests, the practices and all that goes with my faith. And, I am hurt. Sometimes, just to prevent the argument which will lead into a fight, I just keep quiet yet in my silence, I pray to God that He will send the Holy Spirit and enlighten his mind. I pray to Mama Mary and I pray to Jesus. I pray everyday for his conversion. And up until today, I continue praying for him. Especially for his safety.

It has been 12 years since, I read that passage from the Bible. It says that the three remains, faith, hope and love. And the strongest of them all is Love. But, love without God is useless. Love without God will never flourish, it will never grow.

Inspite of all that we have gone through, I still got a priceless gift. I have my daughter whom I know will be a better and wiser woman than her mother. Right now, I only pray to God for Tata’s happiness and good welfare. I cannot just throw all the good times we had and besides, he will always be the father of my daughter.

God bless us both!

Ciao! :)

Count Your Blessings

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I was feeling low yesterday. :( I feel that my self-esteem is going down these past few days. I even cried in the office yesterday because I didn’t like the way I am treated by one of my support person in my team. I believe that he didn’t want me to feel that way, and he doesn’t intend to hurt my feelings. But I guess, he should also be sensitive on other people’s feelings. These past few days were really a disaster to me. :( I am losing my self-confidence because he made me feel stupid. The way he talked to me and asked me to do things made me feel an idiot. I know that I am not. I just cannot take the hurt and the pain that I just cried yesterday. Thank God, I have my friends to comfort me. I have my previous RS’s to lift my spirit. Thank you guys, and I love you all. :)

On my way home yesterday, I started to ponder why my life has been a mess. Well I thought so. I know that I have sinned and I know that I have to pay for it. But I also know that God, is a loving and a forgiving God. I even asked myself, why I have not been so lucky at work and in love. Many people would say that if you’re not lucky in love then you will be lucky in work, and vice versa. I do not say that I am that less fortunate in love. My relationship with ney is okay. Like a calm water in lake. Stagnant. Just there, not moving, not growing. Just all right.

I have been struggling with my sales skills at work. Add to that is the way I am being treated by my team based support. :(

I feel so sad and low.  I know for sure that these things happen for a reason. I believe that I will not be in a position like this if I cannot handle it. I tried to be positive as much as I can. Then, I decided to count my blessings. :) I have issues at work and I have issues in love. Yet God has given me so much blessings that I sometimes overlooked. I counted and counted every single blessing that I receive and continue to receive, that I got tired of counting and I just stop, smiling. :)

I realized that life would be boring and dull without challenges. Problems, difficulties or troubles whatever you want to call it, are there to make us strong, to teach us lessons and to teach us to be faithful.

I was in tears while I pray before I go to bed yesterday. I told God that I believe in His love for me and that He will not forsake me.

When I woke up last night, I checked my phone and one of friends sent me a text message. I was teary eyes when I read his message;

“No one is secured than the one who is held in God’s hands! Safety is not found in the absence of danger but in the presence of God.”

It may looks like a coincidence, but I believe that it God’s way of assuring me that He will always be there for me no matter what; that I should be faithful all the time. Amen.

Ciao! :)

God Answered Prayer

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In spite of the many problems, we face everyday, we should not forget that God listens and answers our prayers. Part of my metrics in Dell is total solutions, in other words, we have to make a sale and we need to meet a certain goal. It may be frustrating to know that at this point, though we are technical support people, the focus of the metrics is sales.

There was a memo sent last December wherein, technical support group can now sell Dell systems. I know that I am not a good seller. I am more focus on resolving the customer’s technical problem instead of positioning parts that he or she doesn’t really need. And everyday, I never forget to pray to God that bless me with good sales and a system sale. Days passed, and I still don’t have a system sale. However, I was able to meet my daily target at times.

One day, I believe it was January 6, my Sales Coach approached me and confirmed when I had my system sale. I told her that I have not processed any system sale yet. She said to check my IDD (the tool that we used for sales) and verify my sales. I found out that there was a system sale in my account! :) To be honest, I told her I could not remember processing a system sale. She said that I must have sent the customer a system quotation and used it. I remember the person who purchased the system and he was my customer. I was very happy and grateful to God upon realizing that He had answered my system sale prayer. :)

Actually, it was not the first time that God had answered my prayers in a way I have not expected him to. Often times, we people overlooked the way God listens and attends to our needs. Like you, I am also guilty of this. There are times, wherein we thought that He doesn’t listen to us. Well, in fact, He knows what is best for us. He gives our hearts desires on His own special time. He knows very well, when to give and what to give for us even if we don’t say it out loud.

He knows everything about us. He loves us that much!

Ciao! :)

God Makes Your Dreams Come True

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Amidst all the problems that we are facing today, we should never forget that God hears our prayers and He does makes our dreams come true. :) My sister Patty sent this email to me and I want to share it with to inspire us through all life’s challenges. Read along :)

Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said,


‘Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty.’


Then the second tree said, ‘Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull.’


Finally the third tree said, ‘I want to grow to be the tallest and

straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the Hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me.’


After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, ‘This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter, ‘and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.


At the second tree the woodsman said, ‘This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard.’ The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.


When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the Woodsmen said, ‘I don’t need anything special from my tree, I’ll take this one,’ and he cut it down.


When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.


The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end.


The third tree was cut into large pieces, and left alone in the dark.


The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.


Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.


Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn’t think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and He stood and said ‘Peace’ and the Storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.


Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.


The moral of this story is that when things don’t seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, God will give you great gifts.


Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined.


We don’t always know what God’s plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.


Please keep this moving… pass it on, so God may inspire more people on the way.


May your day be blessed. And until we meet again, may God cradle you in the palm of His hand.

Ciao! :)

Bleeding Heart

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I am supposed to sing Bleeding Love in the up coming company’s Christmas party, but due to some reasons my song was changed to Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson. Well, I like that song so much and I am more confident in singing that song than Bleeding Love.

But then my heart is bleeding right now. Ney and I have been together for 5 years already. But his family doesn’t seem to accept that we’re back in each others arms again. Our relationship have been through so many ups and downs. It is indeed a roller coaster ride relationship. I have cried a hundred rivers because of this. I have been hurt many many times. But then, I am still here fighting for the love and for the relationship that has been hurting me.

Last night my cousin sent me text message about ney’s mother. As always, my dear cousin told me that his mother makes “parinig” . Though she’s not quite sure is if it’s about me. But most often it is actually. I told her to just ignore them. But infact, I am hurt of these. I don’t understand why they kept on doing those things. They do not give me food. I don’t even ask for financial support from for my daughter from their son! It really makes me feel bad and that really makes my hurt bleed. Whatelse do they want from me? I don’t care about their money. I don’t even care if they have a mansion! I can provide for my daughter. Sometimes, I really want to there and confront them. Infact I am planning to. But then, when I wake up this morning, I prayed to God to give me strength. I know that God is giving me one, because He’s giving me an oppurtunity to be strong. I asked Him for patience and He gave me the oppurtunity to be patient.  I asked Him to make me humble, and yes He gave me an oppurtunity to excercise humility.

I was really hurt last night, that I wanted to send a text message to ney’s mother and tell her to live my relatives alone. If there is something that she wanted to tell then tell directly to my face. I was really angry but then, I realized, if I will do such an act, then my attitude is more worse than hers. I don’t know but maybe this is God’s way of showing me the consequences of my actions before. Though I know that God doesn’t mess with human free will, He is still there to make me realize what needs to be done today and tomorrow.

I know that God will tell how hard headed I am. I’d been hurt a million times. I have cried before God a million times but then, I never learn.

Amidst all this, it is still good to know that God is there for me and will never leave me. I know that He will always be there for me. He teach me lessons. He allows me to get hurt. But when I needed a shoulder to cry on, a warm, loving and comforting embrace, God is there to give me one.

Count your blessings

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Manila once again is experiencing heavy rains and strong winds due to typhoon Pablo. I am at home enjoying my rest day and the cool weather brought about by the storm. I am living with my mother, two sisters and my daughter Antoinette in a not so big house. In fact, it is an old small apartment. As we watch the news flash about the typhoon, my mom uttered that in spite of our financial difficulties, God has blessed our family.

As I reflect on her words, often times we overlooked God’s blessings for us. Instead of counting the endless He is giving us everyday, we get bothered about the things we don’t have. We worry too much that we don’t even realized how blessed we are.

As we watch the news, I thought of the people living near the coast; the people who make the streets and sidewalks their homes; the children I saw in the path walks at Robinson’s Galleria; the people living near the creeks and all the other less fortunate people.

Oftentimes I felt bad for my financial problem does not seem to end. Then, I thought that it is only money that I have problems with, and there are many ways to have extra earnings. In spite of our financial crisis, I live in a comfortable house. I have a comfy bed to sleep and to relax on. We eat more than thrice a day. Most of all, I have a loving family. I have a mother who devotedly takes care of us her three daughters, and my little girl.

As I watch the rain pour down outside, I realized how lucky I am. For sure, you guys would feel the same way, too. Each of us, has our own problems to face for us to become a better, wiser and stronger people. In spite of all challenges that life has to offer, we should never forget and overlook the countless blessings that God showers on us. Blessings that will serve as our inspiration and strength that God will never leave us especially during the darkest hours of our lives. :)

The Power of God’s Love

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I was so down. I only have 200 in my wallet. We don’t have any rice to cook. No more pork, no more chicken. I tried to ask some help from my friends but they too are experiencing some financial difficulties. To my depressions, I tried to console myself by playing some happy tunes. I played Antoinette’s Nursery rhymes but that didn’t give me any good. I looked for another CD to play and I stumbled on a CD which I have borrowed from my neighbor. It is called “Timeless Christian Songs”. I checked on the songs it has and found one of my favorite songs, The Power of Your Love. I listened to song. I sang along with it and just found myself crying. I never realized that I was actually uttering a prayer to God. I asked God to embrace me and hold me closer to Him.

I played the song over and over again. Until, I feel okay. I felt God’s love for me, giving me an assurance that everything’s going to be alright.

Lord, I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed,
Flowing from the grace,
That I found in You
Lord, I’ve come to know,
The weaknesses I see in me,
Will be stripped away,
By the power of Your love

Hold me close,
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near,
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait,
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You,
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your Love

Lord unveil my eyes,
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love,
As You live in me
Lord renew my mind,
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day,
In the power of Your Love

God’s Love

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About 4 days ago my mother and I were worried because we don’t have any food left in our fridge. There’s just around 2-3 cans of corned beef. No more eggs, no more rice. And worst, the money I have is just enough for my everyday “baon” until the next payday.

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But then again, and as always, God is in the rescue. Last Wednesday night, I received a text message from my good friend Julius that we can get our special gift from HR. That’s actually a GC that our company gives for tenured employees.

I was expecting to receive that GC at around Aug. 18. But, it was really a blessing and just came in time.  I remember a quote about prayers. That when God answers our prayers it is YES, NO and NOT YET. YES and you’ll receive what you asked for. NO because He has prepared something better. NOT YET, for it’s not the time to receive whatever you asked for.

Well, I know  that God’s love for me is unconditionally inspite of shortcomings. We just need to have faith and trust in Him. For He will never fail us.

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Bible Promises

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My bestfriend’s(daisy) gift for me on my 25th birthday which was 2 years ago was a book. It is called Bible Promises for you.

Honestly, I have not read the book yet, up until today. I know that everyone of us has our own problems in life. It could be about money, our family and many other things. We often find ourselves caught in anxieties. We feel depressed. We are in fear. We have lots of worries, and we get tempted.

I do find myself bounded within life’s challenges and just don’t know how to get out of it. So then I went to my closet and looked for the said book. I told myself that it is time for me to read it. Be inspired and be more faithful.

It was really inspiring and I’d like to share it with you.
God’s Word – the BIBLE, is full of promises.
Promises made to His children whom He loves.
Because God is God, and His very nature is truth,
He cannot be unfaithful to these promises.
Everything that He has promised to each of us,
We can trust Him to carry out completely.

Remember that these verses are God’s guarantees
to us, His children. Through prayer and practice,
these promises can become part of our life,
giving us hope, joy and victory.

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I’m worried about money. Will God provide for my everyday needs? 

  • My God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19 NIV
  • The Lord is my shepherd, I shall lack nothing. Psalm 23:1 NIV
  • If God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else He wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? Romans 8:32 THE MESSAGE


My parents don’t always understand me. How should I respond to them?

  • A wise son brings joy to his father, but a foolish son grief to his mother. Proverbs 10:1 NIV
  • If anyone does not provide for his relatives, and especially for his immediate family, he has denied the faith and is worse than tan unbeliever. I Timothy 5:8 NIV
  • Respect your father and mother, and you will live a long and successful life in the land I am giving you. Deuteronomy 5:16 CEV

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I’m full of anxiety. Where can I find peace?

  • Do not worry about your life, what you will eat or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. And can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life? Luke 12:22-23, 25 NRSV
  • If our minds are ruled by our desires, we will die. But if our minds are ruled by the Spirit, we will have life and peace. Romans 8:6 CEV
  • Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 NIV


I feel depressed, desperate. Where’s the light at the end of the tunnel?

  • I waited patiently for the Lord; He turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit; out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. Psalm 40:1-2 NIV
  • Why am I discouraged? Why am I restless? I trust you! And I will praise you again because you help me, and you are my God. Psalm 42:11
  • And this expectation will not disappoint us. For we know how dearly God loves us, because He has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with His love. Romans 5:5 NLT

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I’m afraid. Where can I turn for help?

  • Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord is the one who goes before you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:8 NLT
  • God is our mighty fortress, always ready to help in times of trouble. And so, we won’t be afraid! Let the earth tremble and the mountains tumble into the deepest sea. Psalm 46:1-2 CEV
  • The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe. Proverbs 18:10 NIV


Some nights I lie awake and worry. Can God help me slee?

  • When you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet. Proverbs 3:24 NIV
  • I lie down and sleep; I wake again, for the Lord sustains me. Psalm 3:5 NRSV
  • He grants sleep to those he loves. Psalm 127:2 NIV


Forbidden things seem so appealing. What should I do when I’m tempted?

  • So you see, the Lord knows how to rescue godly people from their trials, even while punishing the wicked right up until the day of judgment. 2 Peter 2:9 NLT
  • Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. James 4:7-8 NRSV
  • When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone. James 1:13 NIV

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CEV – Contemporary English Version
ESV – English Standard Version
KJV – King James Version
MSG – The Message
NASB – New American Standard Bible
NIV – New International Version
NKJV – New King James Version
NLT – New Living Translation
RSV – Revised Standard Version

After reading these verses, I really felt good. Hope you feel the same way, too :) !

I love this Man

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Before I leave the office and enjoy my rest days, I decided to post this interesting email I received. It’s about love. A selfless love that only one man can give..

No one falls in love by choice,
it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance,
it is by WORK.
And no one falls out of love by chance,
it is by CHOICE

He did something for you, now do something for him. Spread his word, and you’ll be rewarded. How will you be rewarded?

Matthew 10:32 “Whoever acknowledges Me before men, I will acknowledge him before My Father in heaven. But whoever disowns Me before men, I will disown him before My Father in heaven”

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