Voice Box Cyst

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Hoarseness started last January 2 of this year. I thought it was just due to the flu I had. In spite of what I was feeling, I decided to go to work then. It was my first day of work for 2013. After my shift, I went directly to the hospital and was diagnosed to have severe asthma attack. It wasn’t just upper respiratory tract infection but I had bronchial asthma in acute exacerbation, too. I was advised to rest for 2-3 days.

A day before my supposed “fit to work”, I went back to Maxicare’s physician at Medical City for a follow up check- up. I was told that asthma was contained due to salbutamol but roughness in my voice is still there. Since I work in a call center, I will not be able to stand a day of calls while my voice is in that state. I was advised by the same doctor to have voice rest for 2 more days.

I decided to visit a family medicine doctor nearby and who diagnosed that I have acute laryngitis. The following day, I went to see my ENT who confirmed that I do have acute laryngitis. I was given medication and was advised to have complete voice rest for 3 days.

I went back to his clinic last January 14, and I asked if I can go to work already in spite of my voice. My ENT doctor was reluctant in allowing me. He said that if I really wanted to go to work, then I should talk in a low tone, slow paced, rest in between and should drink a lot of water. I sent a text message to my boss that I will just rest for another day. That I will report to work the following day; which was Wednesday. My boss has always been kind and considerate.

I reported to work on January 16. I went first to our company clinic for assessment and presented my medical certificates. I didn’t realize that I had a fever then. The company nurse gave me paracetamol for fever. And, they actually sent me home.

On the same day, I had a check-up with Dr. Jarin. He requested me to undergo a certain test. In the said procedure, my larynx will be videoed to actually see what is going on. He gave me another medical certificate which I sent to my boss through email. Recommendation: Indefinite voice rest. :(

The said procedure was scheduled on Friday (January 18) of the same week. The night before, I was praying to God, hoping for the best. I am already tormented about my salary. My payables are greater than my salary. :( I asked God for healing and hopefully I can go to work soon. I need to go to work already; I have a lot of obligations to attend to.

The procedure took about 15-20 minutes. The result; the right side of my larynx (voice box) has a cyst. I saw the video and the actual picture and it is very prominent. The recommendation is for me to undergo micro laryngeal surgery to remove the cyst. The other option is, for me not to talk for a long long time. If the cyst will not be removed soon, it might get worst. The doctor said that the only thing affected by the said cyst is my voice (which I used for work). I am afraid that if I undergo the surgery, I may not be able to sing anymore. My doctor said that I can still sing but not very soon. He said that it may take months for me to sing again. He also said that I will not be allowed to talk for a week after the surgery. And, then another week or two for complete recovery. He set my expectation that my voice will not go back to normal yet for my larynx will still be healing. :( I was told that the cyst doesn’t look like it is cancerous. However, a biopsy may be required to be sure.

I cried and cried after learning about it. I also asked God why it is happening. The cyst could have grown on different part of my body. But, of all the places, why did it grow on my voice box? I am not even a smoker. I drink alcohol occasionally. In fact, 3-4 times a year only. I am really scared. I prayed and prayed. Pray and pray. And, still praying.

I prayed to God and accepted what is happening to me. I thanked Him because, the difficulty that I am going through right now, draw me closer to Him.

I decided to undergo the surgery. I am scared but I know that God is there for me. I remember the strength that my Ninang Cher has shown against her illness. I remember my daughter’s bravery when she got hospitalized. I remember the courage of all the people I see in the hospital whose cases might have been worst than mine. They are my inspiration. And, I believe that there is nothing that I cannot do as long I have God in my heart.

The procedure is called Micro laryngeal surgery. I will be under general anaesthesia. It is scheduled on January 25 at 7 o’clock in the morning.

I believe that God knows about my worries. It’s amazing that the stories I read on “Angels. Miracles and Answered Prayers” make me feel secure about God’s love for me. I know that everything is going to be fine. I believe that I will recover soon. I will get well soon. I will be able to take calls again and may get irritated again (just like kuya ron said, “Irita”) LOL! I will be singing again. I will be enjoying videoke sessions with my friends again. And hopefully, I will be singing songs of praise again.. :)

God bless us all!

Fixers still Exist

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Honey and I decided to go to old DFA building for his NBI Clearance authentication last Friday, August 3. I did a research on how to get there and what to do when we get there. We took G-Liner bus bound to Quiapo and got off at Manila City Hall. We passed through the under pass and took a jeep ride bound to Baclaran. We asked the driver to drop us at DFA. It was a long ride.

In the jeep, there are two other passengers bound to DFA. One is an older woman. And the other is a young man. When the driver called that we arrived at DFA, we got off the jeepney and we checked which way to go to DFA. Out of no-where, a man who is about 6ft tall came along beside us. He was carrying a passport and other paraphernalia. He asked us if we will have our documents be authenticated. We said yes. Honey tried to talk to the man and asked about the process of Authentication. He seemed nice and friendly.

On our way to DFA, I prayed that God will guide and help us. Then, we passed by a picture of Our Lady of Manaoag and I prayed to Mama Mary as well. When I was reading the steps on how to process the “red ribbon” for documents, it is clearly stated that one will go directly to DFA office and look for a window that says “Authentication.”

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Well, we followed the man who walked with us and we’re headed to a red building. We went upstairs and we entered a room where we were welcomed by a man. The man who walked with us showed his receipts to the other man in the said office and presented his receipt. Then he showed us his certification which has been authenticated. Of course the red ribbon is there.

I am just silent and observing. I know then that something is not right. I looked around trying to find DFA signage but didn’t find any. Honey handed the copy of his NBI clearance to the man who welcomed us. The man said that he is from Gumaca Quezon. It is the town next to ours. I was talking to myself and waited until the man tells us the fee. I know how much the fee for regular processing authentication and express processing. Regular processing cost Php 100 while express cost Php 200.

Then the hint I was waiting for has come. The man said that the processing fee would cost Php 700 and it is just regular processing. Immediately, I grabbed the NBI clearance of honey and stood up. We told the man that our money is not enough and we need to withdraw some money. I left the room immediately, and called honey to follow me quickly. We got out of the building as fast as we could. Outside a tricycle is already waiting and we were dropped off in front of DFA gate. Since, I have no business to do inside; I was not allowed to enter. I waited for honey at the DFA’s exit for an hour. He only paid Php100 for regular processing fee.

I really felt bad about the young man and the old woman whom we shared the jeep ride earlier. But, I tried to do good deed when someone asked me where DFA entrance is. I provided the woman the direction and firmly said to go straight to DFA entrance and do not entertain fixers.

On our way home, honey told me that it is a good thing that I was quick. He said that he didn’t have any clue. Well, I told him that I read and I pray. :)  Thank you, Lord. Thank you Mama Mary.

Ciao! :)

Hello Again!

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It’s been two weeks since the last time I have updated my online journal. Sorry about that. :( I have been quite busy these past few weeks. I have so much to tell you. Even though its been three weeks now since Holy Week, let me start my stories with it.

Enjoy!

Ciao! :)

Our Lady of Lourdes

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Mama Mary has been given many titles and recognition. One of the said titles associated to her is Our Lady of Lourdes. The said title was given to her because of her various apparitions in Lourdes, France. The most famous apparition happened in February 11, 1858 when the holy mother appeared before 14-year old girl,  Bernadette Soubirous. There had been series of apparitions following that date, and on March 25, the lady admitted to Bernadette that she is the Immaculate Conception.

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Bernadette was eventually canonized as saint in 1933. She died in a convent at the age of 35. Thirty years following her death, her body was exhumed and found incorrupted! :)

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February 11 is set as the day of the sick as well. The same date when Mama Mary first appeared to St. Bernadette. St. Bernadette is the patron saint for bodily illness.

Like in countless apparitions of Mama Mary, the message is always the same. Pray the rosary. Pray and repent.

I am guilty though of not praying the rosary everyday but I do when I can.

Everyday we face difficulties in our life that we almost give up. But, we should always remember that we have a mother who always pray for us. She is the closest human to God. Let us not forget that we Jesus. And, He is bigger than whatever problems we may have.

Our Lady of Lourdes, Pray for us!

Ciao! :)

An Affectionate Dream

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While taking my last break at work, I decided to write in here the dream I had last night. It was a nice dream. Sweet dream in fact that I keep rewinding on my mind. :) Yet, I need to wake up from that dream to face a reality. For the person who has shown me great affection in my dreams, is someone I value so much in my heart but someone I can never be with. :(

Many people would say that a dream is made out of our subconscious mind. It is something that we want to happen but is not happening in real life. I know that we would remain friends only. Good friends in fact, and I am happy and content that I met him in my life. :)

I was with a friend and we are strolling in a mall. Then I saw him attending a wedding. He is so happy and enjoying the wedding. When my friend and I passed by the reception hall, he saw me but ignored me somehow. In the next scene, I saw myself talking to him about something I don’t remember now. What I remember was, he gave me a pair of sandals that are in gold color, and when it fits me so well. Then, I remember we gave each other a big hug. It was a hug of affection.  It was a heartfelt hug.  Then, before we part ways, we gave each other a kiss on the chick.

I tried to search the meaning of it over the Internet, but found no concrete meaning. :(

He is my friend and I know that he loves and he cares for me so much too. I have accepted in my heart long ago that he would always be just a friend. And, though he may not know, he is my stress reliever. I do not deny the fact that sometimes, I get hurt about the love I have for him. But, in the end, I just find myself happy for having to meet him and have him as a friend.

Well, I feel better now. I really feel gloomy this morning thinking about it. Hehehe! I may have fallen for boss but the truth is, it would still be ney in the end. And I would love ney til the end.

Thank you for the time. I just need let my feelings out. :)

Have a great weekend people!

Ciao! :)

A Father’s Day Memoir

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On the same day that the Philippines remembers the 150th birthday of her national hero, Dr. Jose P. Rizal, the world celebrates Father’s Day.

Father’s Day is celebrated every 3rd Sunday of June.

The last time that I was able to greet my father; Happy Father’s Day, was in 2006. He passed away in January of 2007 because of multiple organ malfunctions due to stage 4 lymphoma.

My father wasn’t a perfect father, but I know that he loved us. Maybe he was just human and had been too weak to fight and resist all the temptation around him.

He was a sweet father. He wasn’t a strict father. We can crack joke at him and laugh with him. He loved to sing and to read books. Maybe we got those traits from him. My sisters and I love to sing and to read books as well.

He was good cook, too. I loved his “ginataang tulingan” so much. But, he loved my mother’s version of pancit bihon. Well, we all love it. :)

During his last few days on earth, I remembered him being very hard headed. I remember fighting with him about two days before he died. The last time that I was able to talk to him was when he asked me to give him some dollars. The last words that I told him before he left us was, I love him and if he needs to go, then he should go. That he shouldn’t worry about my mother and my sisters for I would take care of them.

It has been four years since my father died. We seldom visit his remains in the cemetery but we do not forget to pray for his soul.

He may not be the perfect and the greatest father, but he loved us. He also loved my daughter.

Papa, I believe that you’re with God now. I believe that you can hear my heart from where you are. I just want to say, that you will always be loved and missed.

Happy Father’s Day!

Ciao! :)

Why Can’t It Be

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I just feel like posting this song..

Ciao! :)

The Fuss About Friday the 13th

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Today is Friday the 13th. Many believed in the superstitions that Friday the 13th is an unlucky day. There are several considerations why Friday the 13th is thought to be an unlucky day. First, it followed the number 12, which in numerology considered as a number of completeness while 13 is irregular  (as per Wikipedia). Friday on the other hand is considered an unlucky day because, in the older times, there were “unlucky things” incidentally happened on a Friday. In Christianity, Friday was thought as an unlucky day for Jesus Christ died on the cross on a Friday.

I accompanied my sister looked for a hospital this afternoon to have an ecg. The hospitals where we go to are conducting ECG, however, the readings and results will be released the following day. I didn’t notice at first that my temper is very very short. I almost lose myself when a woman didn’t handed us the change for our fare. The jeepney driver is extending his hand already and this woman is just looking at the change. I really felt bad and wanted to get back to her. I know that it is bad to curse, but for some reasons,  I wished that woman lost her hands. :(  I am really mad at her. After the incident, I prayed and said sorry for I had wished for. Then, I told God that I am taking that curse back. I realized that if I acted that way then I would be like that woman. I didn’t really understand why I lost my patience so quickly. I am not sure if it because of Friday the 13th.

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For me, Friday the 13th isn’t really unlucky after all. If something bad would happen, the it would happen anytime. And that it happens for a reason. :)

Although, it is always recommended that we should pray for protection and blessings, and be very careful, not only on Friday the 13th but every day.

Take care!

Ciao! :)

Why do we wave palms on Palm Sunday?

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Palm Sunday is the start of the Holy Week. It is the time of the year when Catholic believers are obligatory called to do penance and repent. Although asking forgiveness should be remembered and done all the time, but Holy Week is a time when we required to do so.

Yesterday was Palm Sunday. In the Bible, the said event is written in the books of Matthew 21:1-7, Mark 11:1-7, Luke 19:29-35 and John 12:12-16. In the Children’s Bible (Retold by Anne de Graaf) I bought for my daughter, the said event was entitled the Big Parade. It was the day when Jesus and his disciples entered Jerusalem. Jesus was followed with a big crowd waving palm branches. They saw Jesus as their king, the one who might deliver them from the Romans.

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Today, we are blessed because we have been freed not only from the Romans but from our sins. We are blessed that our king who is loving and kind has saved us all. There is no reason for us to be afraid or lonely for Jesus has saved us.

Holy week is a reminder of what Jesus went through to save us. There is no reason for us to be sad on Good Friday but instead we should be thankful to God for giving us, Jesus. Holy week is a reminder that there would never be another Jesus and we should value what He has done for all of us. It is a reminder that we didn’t have to be nailed down to the cross because a king and a one true God had done that for us.

What He is asking for us in return is to do good and stay away from sins. I know that it is easier said than done. But it is possible and I believe that we can do it. We just need to pray and pray and pray.

Ciao! :)

God Always Answers Prayers

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When the idea is not right, God says NO…

NO – when the idea is not the best.

NO – when the idea is absolutely wrong.

NO – when though it may help you, it could create problems for someone else.

When the time is not right, God says SLOW.

What a catastrophe it would be like if God answered every prayer at the snap of your fingers.

Do you know what would happen? God would become your servant, not your master.

Suddenly, God would be working for you instead of you working for God.

Remember;

God’s delays are not God’s denials. God’s timing is perfect.

Patience is what we need in prayer.

When you are not right, God says GROW.

The selfish person has to grow in unselfishness.

The cautious person must grow in courage.

The timid person must grow in confidence.

The dominating person must grow in sensitivity.

The critical person must grow in tolerance.

The negative person must grow in positive attitudes.

The pleasure-seeking person must grow in compassion for suffering people.

When everything is alright, God says GO.

Then miracles happen:

A hopeless alcoholic is set free!

A drug addict finds release!

A doubter becomes as a child in his belief.

Diseased tissue responds to treatment, and healing begins.

The door to your dream suddenly swings open and there stands God saying, “Go!”

Use those Coupons!

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I have mentioned in my previous posts to spend your money wisely especially during this time of the year. I was talking to my sister last night about the gifts that we will be giving to our nephews and nieces in Quezon. We have a tight budget this year and we really need to plan on the gifts that we will be wrapping for those children. I was browsing the planner that my sister’s bestfriend gave me on my birthday and found interesting coupons from it! :)

I checked on the expiration date of the said coupons and they are about to expire this year! It’s a good thing that I stumbled on them before they finally expire. I can actually use those coupons to buy gifts for those people on my list!

Using coupon is also a practical way of saving. You may find coupons from newspapers, magazines and even websites! :)

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Ciao! :)

It’s Thanksgiving Day!

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Today is United States’ Thanksgiving Day. We are not that busy at work because of the holidays. I hope they enjoy the sfuffed turkey and the delicious food on their tables. Most importantly, I hope that they enjoy the holiday with their family and friends.

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Happy Thanksgiving Day!

Ciao! :)

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