God is in Control

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I went to MedCity today for a check up from my ENT doctor. It has been almost two weeks since my home confinement due to severe asthma attack and acute laryngitis. There is still hoarseness in my voice, although it has improved a lot. (Maybe the medications given to me are now taking effect). The doctor said that my throat has improved but still swollen. He is actually reluctant when I asked if I can report to work already. He said that if I really needed to go to work, then I should talk in a very low tone voice, slow pace, rest in between and drink a lot of water.

I know that if he is to ask, he would still recommend me to just stay at home and have a voice rest until I am completely well. He may not say it aloud though but the looks on his face tells me so. He knows that I am worried about my job, but I guess being a doctor, he is worried about my health. I appreciate it a lot.

When I leave the hospital, I decided to go to Galleria to pay for the books we have ordered for youngest sister little side-business. On my way to the mall, I prayed and prayed asking for God’s healing and guidance. I am truly worried about my job, and the thought of losing my voice completely is dreadful. I went to Globe center but found out that GCash is not available. I decided then to visit one of my favorite bookstores, Best Seller. I first checked the books currently on sale in the hopes that I would find some good buys. Visiting a bookstore is a therapy for me. (the other one, is visiting the holy sacrament). I found two interesting books to read. On my way headed to the cashier, I found another table with SALE signage over it. Of course, I would not miss that chance. I turned around going to the said table and passed the shelves that contain religious books. I saw Jesus face as cover on the many books on those shelves. When I reached the said SALE books, the first book that caught my attention was the book entitled. “Your Perfect Job” by Robert Bittner.

I usually just browsed through the pages of the book and read a line or two from it. Maybe God directed me to go to that side of the bookstore, so He could tell me what He wanted to tell me. My eyes were set on the line wherein the author mentioned a scene in Moses life. And I quote;

“.. God needed something to grab his attention and set him on the right track. Hence: The Burning Bush. If you are actively working to follow God in your life, chances are God isn’t going to need to grab you by the throat and give you a shake. You only need a visit from God if you are likely, to miss the miracle He has in store for you. All the same, if you do see a bush that’s burning without a charcoal, keep your eyes and ears open. Even if things have been great. Because, there’s one other reason why God might come right out and tell you it’s time to do something different. God may have something even better in store for you and your gifts. Something you can’t even begin to imagine right now..”

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Those words really hit me. As if God is talking to me right that very moment. I was stunned for a moment trying to hold my tears back. I closed the book and looked at the back cover. On the back cover of the book, the writing says, “So, what are you going to do now?”

Earlier that afternoon, while I was waiting for my turn to see the doctor, I was reading an anecdote of woman whose sick mother was in coma in a hospital. It was one of the stories in the said book entitled, “Angels. Miracles and Answered Prayers” (by Kelsey Tyler). While her old mother was in the ICU, a nurse accidentally given her a wrong medication and since then, her mother has been in coma. While she was tending her garden after visiting her mother that day, a man with a dog just appeared before her. In her accounts, she said that there was something unearthly on the said man and she started telling him what happened to her mother. The man said that she shouldn’t worry about her mother for God is in control

When I arrived home today, I tried to contemplate on the incidents that happened. I have been praying for God’s healing hands since the day I was advised to take a rest. Day and night I pray. Every hour I pray, and asked God’s forgiveness and healing.

God wanted me to realize and understand that amidst all my worries, He is in control. And that He may come right out and tell me that it’s time for me to do something different. That He may have something even better in store for me and my gifts. Something that I cannot even begin to imagine right now. I just need to trust and have faith. :)

Ciao! :)

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