It might just be a Paternal Love

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Well, that’s what I keep telling myself for a day now. I keep on telling my heart and mind that it wasn’t a romantic love that I felt. There wasn’t and there isn’t any at all. Maybe it was just plain paternal love and friendship love that I found. I don’t know.. :( But maybe it is.. And I guess that it should be the kind of thinking I should have. It should be the kind of feeling I should feel. :(

It has been quite a while since I see him and been with him. When we met again, the feeling I had for him seems to rekindle again. When he held my hand, I felt the electricity I once felt. My heart started beating fast.

Well, maybe he’s really like that. Maybe he really treats his subordinates like that. I always tell myself that I am nothing special and that he treats me the same way and the same level he treats others. Maybe he treats me as a daughter.

One time he told me that I shouldn’t be jealous for he does love me. He loves me very much. Well, I believe him though. But I guess it isn’t the kind of love I am hoping. :(

When he held me in his arms, I really felt the love and a deep concern he has for me. It is a genuine love. It is a true concern. He’s really a family man. He really cares for a family. And, I really admire and look up to him. He may be the kind of father I must have looking for. A father whose concern is real.

Sometimes, I asked myself why I always tend to fall to a wrong person. A wrong person not because he is a bad one, but because he is already committed to someone else. :( It’s a good thing that my angels and my prayers are still strong enough; strong enough to prevent me from doing things that I would definitely regret.

I am only hoping for the best right now. Besides, I have a daughter and a first love whom I should be entrusting my love as long as I live.

God bless my heart..

Ciao! :)

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